Thursday, November 27, 2019
Hay EVERYONE....
Good days ahead for us all...
Long time no see...
SO many stories followed my live recently.
I wanna talk about TARGET.
This relates with how grateful we are toward our GOD.
Ya...
In our life, we should have target.
Of course, target will keep us to walk on the right track.
But wait till you realize that your very own target can be a boomerang into your life, gals.
How come?
Let me share my story.
Recently I got my life in a rather awful situation. It all began with our (my husband and me) target. This year we planned to rebuild our kitchen. I tell you on the past form because we were late to accomplish our plan. Ya, we failed. We keep seeing our kitchen in terrible condition. Really awful when the rain falls, we will see water everywhere :( So terrible. When you see the floor, Oh My God, it's really bad. You can see the floor in the very basic condition.
Then, we put our target to renovate the kitchen. We earned some money then we found the right time. and what happened next? Shipwreck.... Our Money was not enough to cover all the payment for the renovation. Feeling sad?? of course.
I think we put too high target. Then, the regret came along through my life. I was so stressed because we have to keep collecting some money to accomplish our target.
Okay, in this situation I began to be so "thinker" about our money. I could not buy things whatsoever as way back then. When I wanted somethings, I had to think twice.
I was so stressful. I don't even care how much money that we earned I was just thinking about how we collected as much as we could.
For sure, that was so annoying. and I was tortured by my own thinking. We tried to be pennywise and I turned as a skimpy person wkwkwkwkwkwk.
In this stage, I was so far away from being grateful. Ya ALLAH, that's really bad, very bad, awful, for sure.
I am as a "Emak-Emak" turned into a monster. Honestly, it's so stressful. I sometimes couldn't think in a clear way. I put less trust to Allah OMG :(
I forgot that Allah is always be in our side no matter what. Allah is in our side. It is exactly beside us :(
Then, look a target can make a person turned into a monster AF (if you know what I mean).
Till I was sooooo in the bottom of nowhere, I could not hold my mind and explode. I told my husband I could not live this way. And guess what he said, simple, just go with it. Let it flow. All we need is being sincere with all the things in our life.
Here, again, My dear husband 'Ustad-Wannabe' reminded me the most important value of being human. I forget for a while that we are just a human. We do everything based on His orders.
Then I realized that every single thing in our life is not our own. Allah just send them to us as we borrow them from Allah. Ahhhh.... at that time, my heart felt so cool and relaxed. Ya, I forgot even this body, we just borrow it from Allah. Even, we have tried and pushed as hard as we can, still, all the decision is in ALLAH'S . Subhannallahhhh.... I cried, I was so nasty and terrible.
A standing applause to my beloved husband. He always has a smart sentence to wake me up. Ahhh... What a beautiful way for ALLAH to teach me to be a better person in many side of my life.
So, Mommies all over the world, I share my stories for my own reminder and maybe it can help you to solve your problem. I don't want to be "Mrs. know all the things" because I am just an ordinary mommy that need to keep learning many things in life. But, one thing that can be a point from my story above is how we maintain our mind. How we can put target in our lives without torturing our own lives itsself. We have to make the target goes well with our lives. SO we could walk in the right path in a nice stream indeed.
It's late already, my daughter and husband has been sleep.
Okay, that's enough I think.
I am feeling a lot better...
We'll continue our talks later...
Thanks for reading this kind of rubbish... :)
